JBEAN: your quote: "There are those on this board that may feel I'm not getting any "answers" because there ARE no answers... " AND THERE ARE OTHERS ON THIS BOARD WHO FEEL OTHERWISE.
If you continue to search with an open heart and mind your answers will come. Think, believe and have a little faith outside your comfortable 'box'. It's a big wonderful world out there that an awesome and loving God has created. Remember, time hasn't the same meaning to Him as to us....His concern is for your happiness and growth on this earth and to that end he brings about the "answers".